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yes, this is a very short comment, considering that i haven't updated in while. but i dont have the time right now to write a full entry and i'm afraid i'll forget to take note of it: i seem to attract a lot of neurotic girls. around 75% of the time. why *is* that?

what a difference three months makes.

back from china trip. more on that when i'm more coherent. went to beijing, shanghai, kunming, narita(japan). finally put chinese I learned to good use; no teachers or chaperones spoke chinese! wasted oportunities...

so much for no more spanish. turns out AP stat filled up (stupid really really large class of seniors! nothing against any one of them, just groups of them cause trouble :) ) so needed another class. guess what fit into schedule? bleh...

take a good look at the list of stuff to do back in june. i completed exactly two and a half (trip, sodas, writing). now what can i do?


okay, now for an apology: I'm really, really, sorry for not telling a bunch of people that I'd be gone or otherwise unable to write, especially chime, sMae (okay, I *will* stop calling you that...eventually), and monq.

Someone must be reading these things: I started receving emails (albeit "only" 2) about the "manic-depressive" under mood.
1. Rest assured, although sometimes I may *act* psychotic, deluded, neurotic, etc., I do *not* actually have any mental conditions...that I am aware of, anyway.
2. Either some people are obssessing over me, or... "they like me, they really like me!" I really should remember which movies these stupid quotes are from.
3. Sorry to all those people that I have neglected during May; feel free to sue the College Board because of all the stupid APs, especially Comp Sci A, Chem, and US History (I love history, but please, three essays?).

Here is the list of things that I have been planning to do since May:
-Get the band going
-Get prepared for AP Bio
-Go to China
-Write more (anywhere)
-Draw more (briefcase.yahoo.com/codesmashers)
-Stop drinking so much coffee...and soda...and energy drinks
-Write songs
-Take more pictures
-Learn Russian, Chinese, Japanese, and Hebrew (why Hebrew? I don't know)
-list continues indefinitely (and this is supposed to tbe *important* stuff)...
Then the thought hits me:
I need a life. Why haven't I written something down to that effect? And is there a store somewhere that sells them? Why am I not working at the SPCA, soup kitchen, the Web job that I should be doing right now (take your pick)...

Well, it's all over with; the fun stuff anyways. Back from Chorus tour.
So we sang/And laughed/And danced/But why do I feel last?
Thank you, thank you. Spur of the moment. Anyway, we sucked soooooooooooo much it was unbelievable during the competition. Disorganized, flat, spread out, etc. I did get my solo in As So It Goes a few days later. So why do i feel so blah now? Sigh. We went to Disneyland. Spent the entire day. Matterhorn...wheeeeeeeee! Getting mixed messages from every girl...bleh. Or worse: "confidant". Sorry sMae, just feeling out of sorts recently...

I'm gonna reserve this entry for...well maybe not. all I'm gonna say is that I'm glad I don't need to be in any photograph right now...really.
12 day deadline...137 people have entered in the contest. I know, the new site looks like crap, I just haven't had time to really do anything at all...and 12 days until b-day...and 12 days til i go to hawaii heehee! no, that wasn't my b-day present...wouldn't that be spoiled of me? :P
so I'm just waiting for everything to fall in place.

gasp...made it. though my voice shook like hell, and i went sharp and i faked half of the mass in g (it looks incredibly stupid when i look at the book!)...

i have exactly 24 hours and 42 minutes to learn 3 pieces of music that I don't know for winter concert...stupid classical composers, why did they have to write so many latin songs :P. and i have a solo which I'm gonna mess up on (lack of self-confidence: 107 steven: 2) undoubtedly...and then a history test on tuesday that I won't ahve time to study for and just in general life is going by a teensy bit too fast...back to music...

well, as I expected...we got cut from the cabaret list. i hate it when that happens: you know it's gonna fail, but you're hoping for a miracle some how, and it still fails...

105 entries! a lot of people want free CDs!

oh la de da de da da, da da, de da, da da...
Pianoman. What I auditioned for cabaret with. Not good...cuz Mr. Wells had to *erase* our tape with the accompninent on it...arrgh! and the choreography was all wrong, and the timing was off, and nothing was in the right place *sob*. Anyway, just counting down to Hawaii...and my birthday...same day. I hate flying. I hate taking long trips. Why can't someone invent like some transporter like the Holodeck on Star Trek- forgot, impossible with the resources we have now. So, we're not getting in Cabaret (me and my friends) and I gotta think of something else to do with my time...

we almost got out of our history homework...cooking? ridiculous. we were supposed to make a soul food dish because we were studying the 1800s slave or Southern diet. I had...corn pone. I still can't tell the difference between cornbread and corn pone (besides the names). anyways, a couple days earlier, our teach was talking about he hated Ken Burns because he was an apologist and also said that his documentary on Jazz was racist...something about focusing only on one aspect on African/African-American heritage...and so James decided to argue that since we were only giving "soul food" this kind of focus, that we were being racist and how come the teacher, cuz he was African-American, would allow it. no reply...which means plenty...

Yeah! We're way over average pace, at 37 entries for the treasure hunt. Sorry, can't say if any one's won yet (yeah, it's a shameless gimmick, isn't it?). Head's up, KoNgO people, I'm scrapping the site and startin anew. Any ideas about design? I'll do it in the summer when I finally get a break, but just wanted to tell you people...

yeah I know I risk exposing it, but we're starting an undergroud smart people club at school! that's not to say that if you aren't in it that you're stupid, just not important enough :) seriously though, I wonder why no one has thought of it before...meeting times are "unknown", of course \^.^/

okay, all of you lj readers (see? if you read this, you should get an lj) and KoNgO TaPhu readers (which reminds me: I need a new name for it, any suggestions? [email please, as usual...], please welcome snaxyum and metchem to the group...yeah, i know you'll just bookmrk the pages, but come on...

people, stop being morbid! I've been getting emails as to whether I'm okay! also, think about it: if I'm dead, will I really be able to answer the question, "are you dead?" whew. okay, I'm telling everybody now that I won't be around during the week of my birthday (Alo-ha oi, alo-ha oi...) I'd talk more but I have homework to do right now...

well, merry christmas...i think...let me explain...we had whoe guo (sorry that's the closest I can get), meaning literally "fire pot" or hot pot or "eat as much as you want from this pot and still be hungry" pot. second, we had our usual fight on christmas (at 9pm, record!) and now I'm trying to type all of this w/o getting caught...sigh

Okay, did I ever say how irritated I am when someone asks me who I like? Well, now I have, and that's final...

More teenage angst, right (I do live in a veritable police state)? The voice of the cynic has returned (You should see some of my friends)? Complaints about the commercialism of the holidays (Hanukah has been corrupted, it in fact was never really important and no one ever got like 8 days of gifts in the "good old days," not that I would know...; Kwanzaa is a artificial holiday (nothing wrong with African-American pride, just stop acting like it's some ancient sacred date); and X-mas...do I need to say anymore)? No, none of the above! Just plain bitchery about how everyone has gone to Tahoe or East Coast or (heaven forbid) out of the country while I have to stay at home...waaaaaaaaaaaah...one of these days I'm just going to snap...

I've done it! I've made it past Wednesday! Heeheehee! That means I have only one more spanish final ever! No more spanish, no more spanish lalala! Sorry,just overjoyed. Why are there proctors? People were still cheating...